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Please you guys..I know we try to not get too personal..but we are friends..my mom is in ICU with congestive heart failure, my sister just called me..please pray..she got home last night from trip with her last 12 year old grandchild with dad...and this started this AM and I just got the call..she stopped taking one med she should not have because she did not want to go to bathroom all the time..I pray this time is not it..plaease pray for my mom and family..I love it here and have special freinds here and dar acquantances and we all healing the world in our friendships..please please pray..thank you...Sarah
THANKS SO MUCH..i WAS AN IDIOT..i HAD A MELTDOWN IN THE GROCERY STORE AT AROUN10 PM..I USED THE "F" WORD IN NEITHER FUN WAY FUN ENRIQUE DOES...asking forgiveness now...took them both dinner earlier and got dad home and then stopped at grocery store aftewords and lottery maching ate my 5 bucks and I was an idiot..will get the dear woman a flower or something..I did not blame her but still I was an idiot..now will try and sleep..this helps me soooo much..thank you sooo much..Sarah
PS I AM EXTREMELY GRATEFUL TO GOD AND ALL FRIENDS HERE AND FOR ALLTHE HEALING GOING ON...MORE TO BE REVEALED.
One funny thing..dad did joke tonight...he said he just knew the little guy on the other end..you know you get this machine and plug it in the phone and whoever reads your beats and calibrates it..OMG..he said he could just see it now..and started typing in the air...let's see, lets make this guy dance. He is going to a business meeting tomorrow and sis is driving and involved..praying it won't be too much but really..my folks need a break from each other for just maybe that amount of time now..LOL..and I do not care about not being the "boss"..LOL..2 sisters are bosses..and 2 are workebees..i AM A WORKERBEE AND PROUD OF IT..lol..THANKS ALL AND DEAR Jen..Sarah..xoxo
PSS the guy behind me in the line said.."I'll pray for you."...God bless him..and I need it..so glad we have a forgiving group up there..I do beleive..Sarah
Ah Sarah....you are NOT an idiot! We've all been there I am sure....I know I have....and you win, I know I have said much more then just "F" LOL. There is only so much we can handle.....and you have taken on a massive load this past while. Trust me, I am sure everyone felt empathy towards you.....people understand, people have meltdowns all the time. Your meltdown was very tame comnpared to some I have seen and also experienced, LOL. Be proud of yourself because you have handled this so well, better then I know I could have. You are an amazing person so don't be so hard on yourself. You've reached maximum capacity, to say the least, so give yourself HUGE credit, you certainly deserve it. Love you sis xo xo BIG HUGS!
God bless you and thanks..you know..going to the dentist today for tooth clean is going to be a fun excursion...LOL..I love these gals, thanks so much...xxxooo...Sarah
Also thanks God for Debbie sending me this..ii is going to happen...oh a big sweet one!!!
Update ..yesterday PM we had a meeting with the whole crew at moms's rehab...very very nice..they really think she can come home in 2 weeks..give or take a week and get to a comfortable getting around stage again..without too much help for everything..she is more motivated and definitely better, more up for trying and when home we will get another resting and strengthening level..still before the big exercisers who did the girl in and re-broke this bad foot surgery infection sore...3 different serious infections in one year...and takin care of her did dad i and her in finally in the heart..but they want more of their 7 grankiids, soon to be 2 great grand babies and their 4 crazey daughters it looks like.,.,and dad can drive now..just a tiny bit his healing is so much faster but he has less issues and they both need to rest...tons..I think today we all heaved a sigh of hope.,.more so since the beginning of it..hugs..sarah
PS LOL..Everyone ois very nice but "she is sick opf being called sweetie..lol...and she wants long pants instead of capri's so she does not look likea "pigrim"..her definition of her support socks..and she wanted her hair done and earrings...she never got them pierced..she wears those pinch ones..LMAO..my mom is beautiful..we can loose or lbs together in our eating plan and I really hope she can walk or do stationery bike just a little with me, tiny once a week things she does 3 x a week at home..the big prayers..but first things first..thanks soo much all..my mom is really beautiful..and for what she has been through..very very gracious, she looked like Jackie O when married..little bigger upstairs lol but that beautiful..xxoo..Sarah
Hi all..Mom pretty ill again..30 lbs of fluid back on her..all night in the Er and the Icu waiting room last night..virus around heart still an issue and she hates the convalescent home..the get better to walk place; with a passion..but who would not??..close to 30 nites alone since all this started for her and this new fear she lives with she has post traumatic stress syndrome with all this she had a roung rough time til this started and this has been 3 bad rounds.... we had a healing service after I left to sleep to day at home and just called family..they are good,,I need to go back tomorroew after 12 hrs there last night..unless an emergency am iust whipped,,,gotto a and I am working on getting in better shape myself..xxoo..thanks for your prayers still need them please..saw a man pass last night..saw him go up..no body was there..zero people and his spirit stayed for all family and an hr after they left..he went up..it was a beautiful thing..never have seen before,
God gives the regulars with more life to live glimpses at times like these, I am a little worried about the dream she had that someone was going to pick her up on a Harley, But she sad she could not ride and they said they would get a wagon on the side, I hope that was an angel that decided later she was going to make it, Or A FABULOUS COMBO THEME ON ALL THE ROMANCE NOVELS OF HER LIFE..1000'S i AM SURE..L0L
AWWW soooo sorry. I have tears in my eyes, please I will pray for your Mom.
Thanks so much..she still may make this round,,and still may have years with us..but she has a big road..and she has lost a lot of fight..prayers appreciated...she has had a year of infections..Sarah
Sorry to hear your mom is still not doing so well mi hija. It sure worn you out hu ? I hope you can find some kind of comfort cause that's what we all need in times like this. My thoughts are still with you all. How is your dad doing ? Is he better now ? Hope so dear. Sending lots of positive vibes over and lots of strenght ! Mwuah !
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Thank you everyone...i am resting for 24 to 48 and doing some health and business things.,.this is beyond getwerenching..I have not the stamina to go to where they have flown her today...God bless..please kieep praying and thank you for allowing me this outlet...thanks you Hildeke and everyone...xxxooo...Sarah
Update i posted to special ones...
I made a hard decision...we just put mom and dad on the second life flight of mom's this month..dad was strong enough his doctor said..it has been gutwrenching and so many details I have left out..beleive it or not but the family is hanging together pretty good considering..my sisters are driving six hours tonight where the plane is flying to,,she was not progressing on the lasex and special IV things..it took us 3 hrs before the flight to even get a new IV...and the heart specialist here said we now need to get a pump to pump the heart like Dick Cheney had to get the fluid out of her to give the heart enough of a rest so hopefully it will start on it's own,...she is not a candidate for a transplant, the heart is good but failing because of a virus..the virus is in the muscle..there are several functions but it is not her new pacemaker and fibrulator that is the issue, and functions it deals with that are the issue...I just today think I would have died in the car with either sister..I am that exhausted..beyond beyond..so I drove to airport and watched them get oin life flight..and will somehow get to this place after i get some rest..I just seriouly do not have it...and they don't need a third heart attack...my sweet no 2 sis..usually very sweet but just lives 3 hrs away...she went on this round and has missed since mom went back in..there are horrible details why this is the best..PLease PLease pray this works..please please pray..thank you very much, I will go in a day or two if she is alive...please please pray..Sarah
Oh Sarah, it makes me feel so sad what your poor Mom is going through, your whole family - I can hear in your words things are not looking that great for her - Your Mom sounds like she is a fighter to have overcome all these obstacles so far and I pray she can keep up the fight and come out on the other side of this heart wrenching situation.
Take care Gurl, Loads of prayers, love, strength & blessings coming your way.
thank you so so much..I can get rest and be safer to go in a few days, xxxooo Sarah